Lisa Rinna is reflecting on the killer urges that afflicted her during postpartum depression.
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills alum, 61, sat down for the Friday, April 18, episode of her Let’s Not Talk About the Husband podcast, where she reflected on the aftermath of giving birth to her children.
“I had horrible postpartum depression, but I didn’t know it,” she said. “I didn’t know what it was. When you have your first baby, you don’t know. You just don’t know.”
Reflecting on the period after she delivered her second child, her husband, Harry Hamlin, was concerned:
“You said, ‘I’m gonna kill you,’” Hamlin, 73, recalled. “And I said, ‘You better call [your OB-GYN] right now.’ You said, ‘You better watch out. I feel like killing you.’ You said, ‘Keep the knives in the drawer.’”
Lisa Rinna and Harry Hamlin share two daughters, Delilah Belle and Amelia Gray. She welcomed her first, now 26, back in 1998, and Amelia, 23, in 2001.
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During the segment, Lisa Rinna said she doesn't remember wanting to kill her husband, but she conceded to having violent “visions” at the time.
“I was having horrible hallucinations of killing people and I needed to take the knives out of the house. And I also had horrible visions of driving the car into a brick wall,” the former soap star explained. “I did not have horrible visions about hurting the baby in any way, shape or form. It wasn’t about that. It was about hopelessness, darkest depression and these horrible visions, hallucinations. And it was the knives and it was driving the car into a brick wall.”
Hamlin urged his wife to contact her doctor, who prescribed antidepressants to tackle the situation. Rinna, in turn, noted that it worked wonders for her, adding that it "changed the game instantly.”
She revealed that with her first experience with postpartum depression, she didn't have the same "visions" as she did with her second.
“[The first time] I was just hopeless. That’s the word,” she explained. “I was just absolutely hopeless. Like a huge dark cloud all over me. I don’t know how to describe it, because mine didn’t manifest itself toward the baby at all — it was toward me. I would say, looking back, I was completely psychotic.”
She then concluded the segment by calling on all women who experience postpartum depression to be vocal about their experiences, to facilitate an increase in support:
“Listen, I don’t think any woman should suffer or have to suffer going through postpartum depression,” she said. “And I know a lot do, and I know a lot do in silence.”
Lisa Rinna and Harry Hamlin tied the knot in 1997. The latter is an actor, author, and entrepreneur. He is most known for his role as Perseus in the 1981 fantasy film Clash of the Titans.