"I am the most important character": Doechii opens up about overcoming sui*idal thoughts

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Grammy winner Doechii opened up about the struggles she faced as a child during an interview with The Cut. Sometimes, we forget that celebrities are human and are not exempt from life's dark realities.

During the interview, Doechii spoke about the time she was in sixth grade and had an epiphany.

Her childhood was not always sunshine and rainbows:

"I don’t want to get super-dark... I was getting bullied so bad that I was thinking about ki**ing myself." Doechii revealed.

However, young Doechii was not easily shaken despite her bullies' attempts to break her. One day, she came to a realization that harming herself would not change anything. The only person who would lose is herself. Doechii continued:

"But it was more like this feeling of — 'I made a choice, a decision. I am the most important character in this movie. This is my motherf**ing movie." Doechii asserted.

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Doechii's childhood experience translating into her work today

Doechii did not have a picture-perfect childhood, but she pushed through, and we see a successful woman doing what she loves today. During her interview with The Cut, she revealed her life-changing moments:

"Oh, f**k, I’m gonna k*ll myself and then I’m gonna be the only one de*d.' The bullies aren’t gonna be with me, and everything they said is not coming with me either... I would just be gone."

Doechii elaborated that a sense of peace came over her after this revelation. She said that the message felt like it came directly from God, after which she wrote down her affirmation.

Fast-forward to today, Doechii just won a Grammy award for her latest album, Alligator Bites Never Heal. She also mentioned her inspirations, Cardi B and Lauryn Hill.

She also explained to The Cut that she needed to be straightforward and honest with her fans through her music:

"The feeling that I have when I listen to The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill is the same feeling I want some other Black little girl to have when she listens to me... And in order for her to have that feeling, I have to talk about my feelings."

For Doechii, music is not just about winning awards; it is therapeutic:

"I don’t like making music just for a moment... I like to make music for therapy, for an inner experience, an inner purpose, and not just for an algorithm."

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Fame and money can change a person, but we see Doechii staying true to her inner child. She is doing what she does for the child in her who did not give up on herself in sixth grade. This determination has brought Doechii the success she deserves.